Yep…We are Pregnant!

Whoa! I can’t’ believe that I will be expecting my third child in November. To be honest, when I found out that I was expecting I wasn’t overcome with joy and excitement.

I know.

Personally, we were not planning on having any more children. The hubby and I were completely satisfied with the two little ones that we have been blessed with. However, I want to share my story with you about what it was truly like to hear this news. I am going to be very transparent and open with you. I feel that it is important to share our happy stories as well as the struggle stories.

Not all situations are sunshine and rainbows.

On May 6, 2019, I  decided to go to my local Dollar Tree to pick up a pregnancy test and here’s why. For about a month I had been feeling “not myself” super moody and emotional. I was doing a lot of traveling and staying busy with interviewing and running my business. It never dawned on me that I may be pregnant. It wasn’t until one afternoon I was sitting on my patio writing a blog post, and all of a sudden I became extremely tired. Like…exhausted. I had to go and take a nap and the light bulb went off. Taking naps in the middle of the day is never a part of my schedule. However, I remember when I was pregnant with M I had to take naps all the time at a certain time every day.

This is when I made the decision to go and get a pregnancy. I took the test and it didn’t take long for the two little pink lines to show up.

SHOCKED.

My eyes started to fill up with tears. No, this can’t be, I can’t be pregnant. After I took the test, I called my primary care doctor and schedule an appointment. They were able to see me the same day. The doctor comes in the room and says, “Congratulations, you are pregnant.”

Then the flood gates of tears opened up and I was completely devastated. This was not the news I was expecting. The doctor gave me a minute to gather myself. There were so many thoughts that went through my head at that very moment.

When?

How?

Why me?

But we had a bigger problem on our hands. I had no idea when I had my last period.

Yeah… I know.

Since I couldn’t recall my last period I had to be scheduled for an ultrasound. We needed to know how far along I was in the pregnancy in order to determine a due date. Luckily, I was able to get an appointment the same week. The next task that I had to take care of was telling my husband the news. Let’s just say he was as shocked as I was.

Later that week I went into the ultrasound appointment with a full bladder. This had to be the most uncomfortable part of this entire pregnancy so far.  The tech was clicking and typing and never said a word. My nerves were on a TEN.  Then finally she let me go empty my bladder and invited my husband in the room.

This was the first time I saw the monitor and when I looked…

I started crying uncontrollably. There was a whole baby in there. Head, arms, legs, and a heartbeat of 171.

After she saw my reaction, the tech asked if she needed to leave the room…I said no. She then proceeded to tell us the baby was measuring 10 weeks and 4 days.

TEN WEEKS AND FOUR DAYS!

At this point, there is no turning back and I had to go and talk to God about this. We had a very long and in-depth conversation. Let’s just say that after this talk, the burden and worry were lifted and I was at peace with the plan that God has placed on my life.

Don’t get me wrong, I know that there are women who are praying for their miracle baby or their rainbow baby. To be honest, to know this, humbled me even more. Who am I to be upset at the blessing of life that God has granted me?

Talk about a reality check.

Now that the initial shock has passed, we can’t wait to meet baby Brown in November. We have decided not to find out the gender of the baby. Instead, we are waiting until the end. Talk about the ultimate surprise.

Speaking of surprise, you have to watch M & C’s reaction to the news here!

Dear Mamma’s You Need To Stop Being So Hard On Yourself